This week is going much better... I don't feel like I want to kill myself at the end of the day. So that is improvment.
I really don't think I would be handling this whole alone thing if it wasn't for being able to talk to friends on a regular basis. I need that soooo much. And also talking to my family. That has actually been surprising. Up until now I only talked to my parents when I needed something and now I talk to my mom about once a week. Its good to talk to people who I know really love me no matter what I do or how bad I screw up. Its amazing what comfort that is.
I also am getting more adjusted to Kindergarten, I no longer feel that teaching 5 year olds is going to kill me. The weird thing is now that I feel out of my element with the 3/4th graders. But that is becasue it is not my class. I am coming into someone else's class and taknig over. Its not a great place to be. I hope that eventually goes away. I will just have to give it time.
Ok, it is 10:30 so I better get to bed so I'm not exhausted in the morning... This is the life I lead.