How does this always happen?

So I've come to the conclution that I, once again, have no plan for a job next school year. I HAVE NO JOB COME MAY 27th! Didn't I just do this A YEAR AGO! What the hell am I thinking! I used to be the dependable one, with a plan, with a goal in mind for the future. Now my friends who were the flighty no plan people now have it all figured out and are gainfully employed.

Something apparently happened to me between graduating from college and my first job. And that was only a few months. If you know what it was, please let me know so I can fix it. Also if you have a great plan for my life and feel like sharing it please do. I've got nothing. I've thought about a few things, but nothing sounds appealing right now. Maybe your job isn't supposed to be this great thing that I was always told it would be. I'm going into debt with this job, my sister isn't making any money at the studio right now because enrollment it down. Something is going on and I don't know how to fix it. Goodness, my brother in law's brother (what do you call him? Brother in law, or something else?) Sean is making better money as a part time actor than both of us right now.

I missed the boat somewhere. Is there a second boat I can take and when is it scheduled to come to my port? Or did I just take someone else's boat? Is there a boat at all?

I think this all came crashing down today sine yesterday I turned in my letter of intent, something I've been working on for sometime now. Plenty of people can tell you they had to help me because I was freaking out about it. So once school is out I am unemployed, granted I will get paid through the summer, but I've got to get my life back in order, somehow.