Another Chapter...
Tomorrow morning I am leaving for Idaho Falls to start a new adventure. I will be the 1st grade teacher at Hope Lutheran. I am excited about this, really I am. I just have so much to do before actually feeling good about the entire move.
As of right now I am homeless. I have nowhere to live, and shockingly enough I am a little nervous about that. Granted, I am staying with my 2nd cousin until I find a place but I don't like to have things up in the air like this.
Tonight I went over to my sisters to collect some of my belongings and say goodbye she reminded me that God called me to this new place for a reason and now I need to go figure it out. I've been so hung up on moving AGAIN and getting my class set up I really hadn't had time to adjust to the fact that I have been called to this place. I really need to let that sink in before I meet with the other people I will be working with, I don't want them to think I'm a big downer, which normally I'm not. Or, at least I like to think not anyhow.
I think a lot of my stress stems from the fact I haven't been home in over two weeks. I volunteered a week at camp and then went to Texas to visit with Noah and his family. Those two weeks were great while they were happening, but now I'm extra stressed because I had 48 hours to pack up my life again. I really need to start planning out these trips a little better, like not back to back and right before I have so much going on. I guess we'll see if I think ahead next time.
I think I'm a little sad to be leaving my family, it has been so nice to be around them all this summer. I got to spend a lot of time with my sister and her family. It makes me ache for a family of my own, not anytime soon however. I think I might need to find myself some wonderful man for that to happen, that has not happened as of yet.
Plus that little baby of hers is so cute, I love her so much, its so fun to play and see her all the time. I won't be able to do that anymore, that's really sad.
I also won't be able to just show up at my parents to hang out and have dinner.
I don't know what my deal is. It's not like I'm moving across the country, its only 5 hours away. I hope I wake up with a whole new attitude, I so want this job to work out. I can't take another year of uncertainty and hating my job, this has to work out. Otherwise I don't know what I will do.
Ah, to much negativity for one night.
Goodnight
As of right now I am homeless. I have nowhere to live, and shockingly enough I am a little nervous about that. Granted, I am staying with my 2nd cousin until I find a place but I don't like to have things up in the air like this.
Tonight I went over to my sisters to collect some of my belongings and say goodbye she reminded me that God called me to this new place for a reason and now I need to go figure it out. I've been so hung up on moving AGAIN and getting my class set up I really hadn't had time to adjust to the fact that I have been called to this place. I really need to let that sink in before I meet with the other people I will be working with, I don't want them to think I'm a big downer, which normally I'm not. Or, at least I like to think not anyhow.
I think a lot of my stress stems from the fact I haven't been home in over two weeks. I volunteered a week at camp and then went to Texas to visit with Noah and his family. Those two weeks were great while they were happening, but now I'm extra stressed because I had 48 hours to pack up my life again. I really need to start planning out these trips a little better, like not back to back and right before I have so much going on. I guess we'll see if I think ahead next time.
I think I'm a little sad to be leaving my family, it has been so nice to be around them all this summer. I got to spend a lot of time with my sister and her family. It makes me ache for a family of my own, not anytime soon however. I think I might need to find myself some wonderful man for that to happen, that has not happened as of yet.
Plus that little baby of hers is so cute, I love her so much, its so fun to play and see her all the time. I won't be able to do that anymore, that's really sad.
I also won't be able to just show up at my parents to hang out and have dinner.
I don't know what my deal is. It's not like I'm moving across the country, its only 5 hours away. I hope I wake up with a whole new attitude, I so want this job to work out. I can't take another year of uncertainty and hating my job, this has to work out. Otherwise I don't know what I will do.
Ah, to much negativity for one night.
Goodnight
posted by Tina J @ 10:42 PM
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